亲爱的姥姥
昨天晚上我又梦见您了。我回家， 家门口有个奇怪的门， 都用一个玻璃墙罩着。
我第一次进去的时候好像是外公刚刚过世，您说一扇门要隔成两半。下一次我再回家，门中间已经隔了一扇白色的墙。这个拱形的门， 真的就只能开一半， 另一半不能再打开了。
姥姥，这个梦是什么意思呢？您是说每一个离开我们的亲人都像一扇门吗？走了之后，门就关了？我不这么认为啊。 因为您走了之后， 我时不时还是能感到您就在我身边。上班在地铁上的时候， 晚上睡觉前看电视的时候， 梦见您后早上起床的那一分钟，这些点点滴滴的时刻，都有您在我身边。
放心吧， 北京的生活都好。还有两个月就是婚礼了。您和外公一定要来啊。我希望爷爷和三叔，当然还有舅妈也能来。人生有这些里程碑般的仪式， 就是为了提醒我们记得那些逝去的人吧。
姥姥， 我还是很想，很像您。
杨立马 （黄河路上的斯大林）
Maybe because of mercury retrograde, the starting week of June was filled with problems. Things are looking up a lot this week.
We have been doing some fun stuff each week, checking out new bars, restaurants etc. There are so many interesting things to do, people to meet. This is what we move here for, to feel alive and energetic again. Get back the sense of exploration and enhance that curiosity about things.
Work has been fantastic. Its getting really busy, but all the stuff we do are things I find really fun. Its a great team of people, I have been learning a lot from them. I think most important thing to me about this team is everyone is approachable. So if I have a question, no matter how silly it seems, I don’t feel uncomfortable to ask it. There are quite a few projects on at the same time, the challenge is not to get caught up in the execution of the event, but keeping in mind the bigger picture. Plus need to think about developing new projects. Not just to react to things when they come my way, but actively seeking new ones.
The only thing missing is a good gym to go to. How I miss my gym sessions. Found a swimming pool near our place, there are lots of kids there because of the water slides. I was surprised to see groups of American and Russian expats there last weekend (separate groups). The Americans talked a lot about fancy parties, pedicures, body wax and also complaining about Chinese man who sweats a lot at a meeting. It seems that although they live in Beijing, they are still very attached to their community and try their best to carry on the “civilised” life. So next time if someone complains Chinese live overseas always stick together, I will point out that as a matter of fact the foreigners living in China do not really melt into the local cultures neither.
Till then
LIYANG'S THOUGHTS 