Dear Paula,
It was a beautiful Saturday in Coromandel. We all sat around a circle, so many people shared about their moments with you. There were some common things being said again and again, you always talked about others never self-centered, despite the pain and struggle you were in. You make people feel good, feel cared for and special. When I got home that evening and read the messages between us, it mainly about my updated on Isabella. Only in between messages you mentioned you were not doing well, falling apart a bit each day.
When I think of it, they way you said falling apart a bit each day, aren’t we all falling apart a bit as time go by? The differences are some take longer and others take shorter.
I told Adele how I appreciate her selection on staff, without her choices, we would not have worked together. Fiona, Brenda, you and me were all hired by her. No longer worked together, but somehow life all entwined in a way. I am grateful that our paths crossed.
David mentioned when you first found out you were sick, you asked what you achieved in life. In my view, its not what you achieved but what you have been. You touched many people’s hearts. your courage made me go through some of the dark moments in life. I thought of you when things weren’t so good in Beijing, I thought of you when I complained about the insignificant worries I had, I thought of you when I lack of motivation to carry on another day with positivity and light in my heart.
David said he went through things to look for that message he thought you left behind. At the ceremony, he found it, it was through everyone’s memories of you. The message was carried through all these people you have met through life.
When your ashes were scattered over the forests and the ocean, you are freer than all of us. Ashes to ashes , dusts to dusts. Rest in peace and one day, we may work together again in some mysterious ways.
Go well, my dear.
Liyang
LIYANG'S THOUGHTS 