Fear is a friend, sometime it walks along side me. sometime it gets on my back, let me carry it. Sometime it walks faraway from me, I almost forgot it exists.
For the last few months, like many people around the world, I would say fear is on my back, constantly.
I am fearful for my loved ones health. I am fearful for my health. I am fearful for my job. I am fearful for the future.
To admit I carry fear is not easy. Most time, I could have a full head of worries then I see my friends or my work mates, I smile. I smile not only to reassure others everything is ok, but also the action of smiling actually help keeping fear at bay.
Fear is a friend, it is a old friend. This friend is loyal, as it knows all my weakness and my strengths. It knows my deepest desire and what I long for in life. Fear knows who I love and care the most. Fear knows all my aspirations and my hopes.
I long for the day fear walk alongside me, who I see as a companion but not someone I carry on my back. It can get heavy. M tells me fear is an illusion, its almost crazy to be scared of something does not exist or something not even happened yet. Its very true. However, it does not really help. Fear is a friend, who is always there.
I am grateful to have a friend as fear, it keeps me from making rush decisions, it keeps me on the ground. It reminds me what worth to keep, whats to treasure and whats to let go. It teaches me the deep meaning of loss and gain.
Learn to live alongside fear is a life long lesson. Hey fear, I acknowledge your existence in my life, this is a good start. We will get to know each other better and learn to live alongside each other just fine.
Last note to self – Fear and Fun, both start with the letter F, also Fine.
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