Today work announced we are rolling into a new financial year, it also marked halfway into 2025.
Bella has been having bad headaches, I am worried about her, but M did get her to see our GP. All checks seem to be normal, hope she recovers by end of the week.
Work today taught me a lesson, if anything is unclear, instead of wondering about it, go and ask. The more I ask, the more I know. The more I know, the better decisions I can make.
Listened to a podcast from a Chinese female film maker. She had her 2nd baby 8 weeks ago. On day 4 post birth she attended the screening of her film. Two things she mentioned really moved me:
- We always think life happens in steps; we hope to finish one thing and then move on to another. The reality is many things occur at the same time: baby, career, health, illness, birth, and death. Life is chaotic; it does not fall into your plan.
- Being a mother, you be at work missing your child. Yet, when next to your child, you want to be alone. There is the constant feeling of guilt. She was asked why she would want to be a mother. Why would she choose motherhood if she craves her freedom? Why would she choose it if she wants time to create her work? She answered that it was probably due to the curiosity of different stages of life. I find that really relevant to me. I was curious what it was like to be mother. No one can tell you, you figure out your own way being a mum along the way.
So here is a new month. We are looking forward to our trip. Hope we are all healthy and strong for the rest of the year.
LIYANG'S THOUGHTS 