Work has been full on. I am learning a lot, but the same time there are many adhoc things added to my list. I will feel better in 3 months.
When Spring is here I will feel more at my own pace with work. Many things I find strange and challenging will make more sense. I will be more familiar with the process. I will know the people I work with better. I will build trust and better process with external people. I will be more confident in my ability to deliver.
This morning feeling stressed and unsure if I could finish things on my list. I still showed up, sat down and worked through the list. In the evening I attended another training session. By the end of day, the feeling of stress and uncertainty has eased a lot.
Feelings do pass. My thoughts are just thoughts, they are not real. Let feelings pass me through. I am allowed to feel all sorts, there is no need to fix a feeling.
I do believe the more I think the more problems come up. The more actions I take, the more answers I find.
There is a tendency to over think, plan and control. I am learning to let go, Focus on each moment right now, less anticipating the challenges in advance. Life is to be lived, not anticipated.
All I ever have, is now.
LIYANG'S THOUGHTS 